
Sometimes I stay up far too late working on illustrations, or some church assignment, or just sitting before my computer unable to get up because I don't want to go to bed and face the another day.
Here I am doing it again, but this time, I am pondering over some projects I wish so much I could see materialize! For example, I awoke this morning with a picture book stirring around in my mind. I'm talking about names and characters so detailed I can see them! I've had it in there all day today, and can't seem to find the courage to begin. I have several books in the beginning stages, none of which have yet materialized, but occupy several reams of notes and illustrations in file folders, and I wonder why I hesitate. What is it that stops me? Am I afraid they won't materialize and just remain filed away forever along with so many ideas and dreams that begin with the best of intentions? Am I afraid I'm just not talented enough to actually see them through to completion, publication and who knows what else? Am I just too tired trying to make ends meet working a 9 to 5 job totally unrelated to what I've written here and can't seem to find it in me to even care? I don't know, but it's too late once again, so I'll have to ponder on this another time.
